Well,I dont suppose there is anything new with me.I do remember Cheryl telling me she's coming over in July.But I totally forgot.I saw her in the canteen with Suhaimie n I was like...pfff...Dude, if u go over there,it will be like playing dota with Erick while he uses balanar.(meaning its pointless)So I laid back.Occasionally looking at them both while talking to Erick and Dennis about Dota.
Bagi salam to the occasional ustazah passing by while smiling in guilt.Then people come and say "Suhaimie is looking for you."obviously I know why...How can you not catch on that I don't respond to ur calling because I don't want to...geez.Then out of the blue Suhaimie brings her over.I turn around after Erick gives me the heads up in a mocking tone and I'm stunned.All I can see are her eyes(she looks really cute in person)...
In that moment,all the words were playing in my head,but my mouth was locked.I really wanted to talk to her but I couldnt work up the nerve.So,I said Hi...ok bye!...WTF happened to me???That has never happened before...What a fool I made of myself.Then she and Suhaimie walked away and I sat down and sighed.Erick and Dennis were laughing.Slapped Dennis but not Erick.
I was really emo for the rest of the day...Thinking about Cheryl and how stupid I was to be like that...I shut down completely when she looked at me...BODOH!!!!I regreted not saying anything to her but it was out of my control...What to do...The next day,I come down from class
and there she is in the canteen.I meet Suhaimie on the way over and say "I'm gonna make up for yesterday."
I sit down next to her and start by apologising for my rudeness the previous day.Then we start talking and blablabblablablablablablablablablablablablablabla................................Afiq comes and says "Hakeem...Lain negara macamana?"Wan said the same thing.Keep in mind the are a year older than me n one is a blackbelt in taekwondo so I couldn't do anything.Then i asked her out but she said she had no time...Ah the disappointment.I dealt with it.
Then she said she had to go n I hung around in the canteen for a bout ten minutes,before grabbing my bag n taking off.I tapped her shoulder n said I'm going back now.She smiled sweetly n waved and I left.Got back home,makan,ulangkaji,get exited about Saarah coming home,tidur...owh,YES I DID TAKE A SHOWER AND YES I DID PRAY.
